I miss you my love,

"Love isn't him calming you down when you yell.
It's him yelling, just as loud, just as hard, right back at you,
right in your face to wake you up and keep you grounded.
It isn't him bringing you roses everyday or cute things
that make your relationship appear more presentable. 
It's after a long fight, that drains the life and bones out of the both of you, 
and yet showing up at your door the next morning anyway.
It's not him saying all the right things or knowing exactly how to handle you. 
It's not him caressing your hair and telling you everything is going to be alright. 
It's him standing there, admitting he's just as scared as you are. 
You have to remember that with love, you're not the only one involved. 
You're unknowingly put your life,
your heart into the palms of another person's hands and said, 
"Here. Do what you will. Mash it into mince meat, or forget I ever handed it to you."

I love you so much my love, missing you so much from the civilization.

I take the effort to wake up every morning and keep some time to myself to embrace myself with the thoughts of you, of us

It isn't easy but I feel good just thinking about you, right next to me :)

It's okay we are a sea apart, i'll be looking forward to your voice every night.

I have crazy thoughts about us every night baby,

I want to wear white and marry you somewhere, anywhere

I want to build a house with you, upon a big patch of grass, there will be standing a little white house

I want to wake up to your smiles every morning 

See you cry, see you cringe, see you bursting into laughters, seeing you in comfort,

within me

I want to travel with you, look at the world with our pair of eyes

I want us to grow together,

catch every sunrise and sunset together,

I want us to get into arguments, but still giving in because we love one another,

I want to be vulnerable and to be ushered into your arms

I want you <3

My Ah Boy to Man

Darling,
I hope when you are reading this, you are going to stay really positive and strong for our upcoming challenges ok? I just want to thank you for creating such wonderful memories for me, for us. This is going to be the greatest challenge ahead, so much so, it felt like a threat or fear to me. The fear of losing you, the fear of "what ifs", the fear of change..
The past few days were like a dream for me, i was genuinely happy and blessed to be holding your hand, walking along streets, eating, smiling, tickling, laughing with you.
That state of happiness within me even when we are not doing anything, shows how much I've fallen for you baby.. Every minute spent with you, is like etched upon my mind, my heart and my soul.
Every place I visit, reminds me of you.
Every little details that i do, like even putting my lipbalm on, reminds me of how you'll smear those layers of kickass stuff on my lips.
But nonetheless, I'm keeping these memories with me and will continue to make them in the future with you baby, the commitment we have for one another, the dreams we have together, there is just so many things undone and we have not done. We promised one another, that there's no stopping for us. Our love will just have to grow, in a way, even if you are not physically here with me.
Like I said, you have my words for everything. I assure you that you're the only guy that i will like today...tomorrow... a week later.. a year later.... and even when im turning 100. Your hands are the only ones that fit mine, and your lips are the ones for me.
My heart will be close to you and i'll N E V E R, I swear, to forget you even for a minute. And i hope you'll do the same for me honey.
I know the truth, that things aren't right for you, you're not really that fine sometimes, like you may be slightly unhappy that we will be separated, you'll miss me, you'll need me,
but baby,
I need you to stay strong to pull through because things will only get better from then and life goes on :)
Sometimes these little moments of sadness/emotions are to show us the wonderful and good moments in life.
Don't ever have the idea that we will not have wonderful times just because you are stuck in that stupid resort ok?
I'll try my very best to transmit my love across, via phone, sms, anything!
I'll update this space as much as I can, so you can read them all when you are free :)
Will be looking forward to every book out that you have, and the activities we are going to engage ourselves in!
Just promise me that if you are dejected or really tired inside,
you'll chin up,
you'll wipe those tears away,
you'll stand strong
because you are a little fighter in my heart, though you are serving for the country,
you will always be my baby in my heart :D
you know that I'm your number one supporter right? Your girl will wait for you, i promise
because in her concert, the only audience she will have is you.
HAHAHHAAH her mini karaoke concert!
So just promise me ok my baby?
Dont ever give up.
On anything,
On me,
On us.


WE WILL GET MARRIED SOON. BECAUSE YOU GAVE ME A GRASS ENGAGEMENT RING AND I'LL MAKE SURE I HAVE A DIAMOND ONE ON ME SOON! :D

I love you sweetheart.
I hope you'll replay those times when i whisper those three words into your ears.
MAKE SURE YOU KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU VERY VERY VERY VERY MUCH OK?
FOREVER AND ALWAYS.
I need you back really soon to continue making our love videos.

Love and kisses,
Your baby girl.