I love you

I will never forget how you smelled that day 

like your mom did your laundry and like you wanted me to 

want you

and breathe you in until i got lightheaded

and had to sit down

and i will never forget the way you looked at me

like you could sort through all the clutter in my head

and i will never ever forget how your voice sounded soft and sudden and illuminated just like your eyes

when you said i was different and that was the exact moment when i let myself fall in love with you all over again.

:)

ISNT THIS OUR GAME?!

Oh baby, the game is called...

TOO HOT

I fell in love with you

You don't have to be the boy of my dreams, or read the same books and fancy poetry like i do.

You may not send the longest goodnight text messages, or like to wish me good morning once you wake up. 

You may be a green tea frappe person, and me a complete opposite, 

you may enjoy sports like how i enjoy snuggling on bed.

You may not be the boy I expected myself to fall in love with, nor were you the boy that caught my eye at first. 

Yet my everyday stands still when your words don't reach mine, and the days i've wandered alone came to a stop once you took my hands and led me out of the darkness step by step. I've never met another with the patience of a song, and the heart of a poet; that every time glancing across the room, looking at you, i fall back in love with the boy that shook my world, and i remember the plans we make, the deals we promised, the dates we missed and the dates that made me love you more. and if time took this love away from my hands, i wouldn't see to it as the ride we both ventured should not stop; that i haven't met someone that gave me such a worth while to stay, and i haven't opened my heart to another with such ease and such comfort but him. 

And today i found J, 

who made sure i was happy every day as he carried me across the waters i once feared, 

kissed me on the forehead and told me love need not be pain and blood, 

but it meant that i could do anything just to see you smile. 

I love you 

Conquering BT2

Because you always have been the brightest in my heart. Those letters on your report cards should not matter, it will not matter. I admire your strength, your perseverance, your balance and your determination. 

Definitely a hurdle, but it won't bring us down. 

Even if it's doing nothing while watching you battle with the books

wasting hours watching you lost in reverie

stayin' up late till you're on bed

it won't bring us down.

it will never bring us down.

because my baby is never a quitter.

Gearing for the future

Your words came across to me like a lullaby, rocking me away from the fear that once consumed me. I swear this could be infinite, if you just take me by my hands, hold me with you heart. 

The road ahead are full of jolts, but I promise to brave through the storms with you, till end.

A world chockablock with humans, and yet the one standing right next to me, 

is you.

43 more days my love.

Bus Rides

Did you know, my heart yells a million "I love you" when I am right next to you?

The day we fought

14 June
I'm sorry for the times that i've pushed you away, I don't really mean to

when I tell you I don't want to talk about it, i do, i am just looking for the right words.

Give me a minute and I can tell you; I will.

I try to be a struggling mix of real and perfect at the same time, at the moment

I am working on the ratio,

When i get really quiet sometimes it is because I have too much to say I have thought of too many things to tell you at once and I don't know what to say first.

I get immaturely envious of those who gets to see you on a daily basis,

while i made the choice to be on a separate sheet,

I miss you really easily. But i also like how we can be

a    p    a   r    t

and we are both okay,          space is good. too.

I love the way how we love the same things, and I love how we love entirely different things.

My head is a compile of thoughts and cravings and dreams and this tangled nostalgia for the past and somehow the future. 

I'm flawed and I'm human and I'm trying

 and I love you

So glad that you are here.

Your call before camp

you called on a random day,on a random afternoon

telling me how much you've missed me.

your melodious voice,

or should I say excitement?

It was just 24 hours baby :)

When you are so adorable,

"I will announce when i put aloe cream!!"

 

Carrot Cake

Bliss in life;

is when you travelled for

an hour

just to enjoy a plate of carrot cake with me.

simple meal, and yet it meant so much to me.

xx