It's been long since the last update.
Is going to be a grueling 12 days without you by my side. That sucks but is okay :)
Honey, you know how much I'll do and wait for you right? Even though is emotionally tormenting to be separated from you (physically), I keep telling myself to stay strong because if I do not, you will not either. I treasure the times when I am with you, our weekend dates, our little meals, our stroll and your little gestures just make me realized that - all the wait was worth it. And you have no idea, NO IDEA, how happy and blessed am I to sense your presence. I came to realized that why people break up when the other half during the course of army because is really really tough, when communications and physical time together are reduced SIGNIFICANTLY. AND ITS HARD, to not have someone there when you need them, or to console someone when they are so far away. Eventually, they will feel empty within right?
BUTTTTT BABYYYYYY im just saying, like if I am in their shoes la, obviously we are different. Im sorry if I sounded bipolar because i'm just thinking honey. I've been staying so strong and being occupied all these while. Im not even experiencing the slightest loneliness/emptiness/neglect-ness whatsoever ok? I just miss you and I know how hard is it for you, because you probably miss me as much as I miss you, and yet you're stuck in there.. That's worst x 100 for you. But you've been a fighter to me. And i'm proud of you :)
I know sometimes you miss me so bad I see tears welling up in your tear duct and at the rims of your eyes, you suck it all in because you are a strong boy. Just need to tell you that, we have to stay strong ok? Especially when times are gonna get harder in there, you need to be extra positive! REMEMBER ALL THE POSITIVE THINKING WE TALKED ABOUT IN JC? :)
Things will be fine because even though is 12 days later we get to go on a date, you know I will be here waiting patiently (with a smile on of course). I'm not going to whine or complain and swear about SAF or anything. Everyone have to get through this and is really just a test to our r/s. SO WE MUST NOT CONFORM AND BE WEAK. WE HAVE TO BE LOVING AND UNDERSTANDING :) HAHA I sound very wise and understanding :) hehehehehhee,  all I hope for is- you to be happy ok? I know you're tired, and is draining, but Hooray! Got through the first day of the week baby! :)

By the way, to make your day better, I'VE RESEARCHED ON A FEW PLACES WE CANT VISIT FOR OUR SECOND YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOHOOOOOOOOOOO

1) PENNY UNI

2) Cups and Canvas

4) Prive Cafe

5) Five and Dime

6) PS CAFE

7) ANTOINETTE

8) Marche

9) THE KOREAN SHOP AT ORCHARD CENTRAL

10) OR KISEKI MUAHAHAHAHAHA

11) IF YOU WANNA RIDE HORSE, we can go rider's cafe too!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA im such an efficient girlfriend baby!

HOPE YOU ARE AS EXCITED AS ME!!!

I miss you my love,

"Love isn't him calming you down when you yell.
It's him yelling, just as loud, just as hard, right back at you,
right in your face to wake you up and keep you grounded.
It isn't him bringing you roses everyday or cute things
that make your relationship appear more presentable. 
It's after a long fight, that drains the life and bones out of the both of you, 
and yet showing up at your door the next morning anyway.
It's not him saying all the right things or knowing exactly how to handle you. 
It's not him caressing your hair and telling you everything is going to be alright. 
It's him standing there, admitting he's just as scared as you are. 
You have to remember that with love, you're not the only one involved. 
You're unknowingly put your life,
your heart into the palms of another person's hands and said, 
"Here. Do what you will. Mash it into mince meat, or forget I ever handed it to you."

I love you so much my love, missing you so much from the civilization.

I take the effort to wake up every morning and keep some time to myself to embrace myself with the thoughts of you, of us

It isn't easy but I feel good just thinking about you, right next to me :)

It's okay we are a sea apart, i'll be looking forward to your voice every night.

I have crazy thoughts about us every night baby,

I want to wear white and marry you somewhere, anywhere

I want to build a house with you, upon a big patch of grass, there will be standing a little white house

I want to wake up to your smiles every morning 

See you cry, see you cringe, see you bursting into laughters, seeing you in comfort,

within me

I want to travel with you, look at the world with our pair of eyes

I want us to grow together,

catch every sunrise and sunset together,

I want us to get into arguments, but still giving in because we love one another,

I want to be vulnerable and to be ushered into your arms

I want you <3

My Ah Boy to Man

Darling,
I hope when you are reading this, you are going to stay really positive and strong for our upcoming challenges ok? I just want to thank you for creating such wonderful memories for me, for us. This is going to be the greatest challenge ahead, so much so, it felt like a threat or fear to me. The fear of losing you, the fear of "what ifs", the fear of change..
The past few days were like a dream for me, i was genuinely happy and blessed to be holding your hand, walking along streets, eating, smiling, tickling, laughing with you.
That state of happiness within me even when we are not doing anything, shows how much I've fallen for you baby.. Every minute spent with you, is like etched upon my mind, my heart and my soul.
Every place I visit, reminds me of you.
Every little details that i do, like even putting my lipbalm on, reminds me of how you'll smear those layers of kickass stuff on my lips.
But nonetheless, I'm keeping these memories with me and will continue to make them in the future with you baby, the commitment we have for one another, the dreams we have together, there is just so many things undone and we have not done. We promised one another, that there's no stopping for us. Our love will just have to grow, in a way, even if you are not physically here with me.
Like I said, you have my words for everything. I assure you that you're the only guy that i will like today...tomorrow... a week later.. a year later.... and even when im turning 100. Your hands are the only ones that fit mine, and your lips are the ones for me.
My heart will be close to you and i'll N E V E R, I swear, to forget you even for a minute. And i hope you'll do the same for me honey.
I know the truth, that things aren't right for you, you're not really that fine sometimes, like you may be slightly unhappy that we will be separated, you'll miss me, you'll need me,
but baby,
I need you to stay strong to pull through because things will only get better from then and life goes on :)
Sometimes these little moments of sadness/emotions are to show us the wonderful and good moments in life.
Don't ever have the idea that we will not have wonderful times just because you are stuck in that stupid resort ok?
I'll try my very best to transmit my love across, via phone, sms, anything!
I'll update this space as much as I can, so you can read them all when you are free :)
Will be looking forward to every book out that you have, and the activities we are going to engage ourselves in!
Just promise me that if you are dejected or really tired inside,
you'll chin up,
you'll wipe those tears away,
you'll stand strong
because you are a little fighter in my heart, though you are serving for the country,
you will always be my baby in my heart :D
you know that I'm your number one supporter right? Your girl will wait for you, i promise
because in her concert, the only audience she will have is you.
HAHAHHAAH her mini karaoke concert!
So just promise me ok my baby?
Dont ever give up.
On anything,
On me,
On us.


WE WILL GET MARRIED SOON. BECAUSE YOU GAVE ME A GRASS ENGAGEMENT RING AND I'LL MAKE SURE I HAVE A DIAMOND ONE ON ME SOON! :D

I love you sweetheart.
I hope you'll replay those times when i whisper those three words into your ears.
MAKE SURE YOU KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU VERY VERY VERY VERY MUCH OK?
FOREVER AND ALWAYS.
I need you back really soon to continue making our love videos.

Love and kisses,
Your baby girl.

Happy V Day Dearest,

It didn't occur to me that it's been a long time, ironically, when we first dated, it feels like forever since we've been together.
Nevertheless, you never fail to make me for fall you every single day.
I vividly remembered the first time when you came into polo,
when I made fuss about who is this "junfu" guy that the whole school was talking about cause of your previous breakup,
I remembered how polo studying sessions you were near me, or were you sitting opposite me
and how coincidentally we stayed at the same area.
Polo dates then became "our" dates where we will find excuses to go out and study (you bought carrot cake for me, do you remember?)
But truthfully, I just wanted to be close to you (shy)
Honestly, it didn't occur to me that I was slowly falling in love with you
I looked forward to school because I know somehow you'll try to peek at me, or me looking out for you
But still pretending we are least interested in each other.
You called me PIG, and you are my PIG too, your random texts in school.
Ya ok, I was waiting for those texts, I bet you are too :)
How MSN chats became texts after that BBQ at Qinghong's place
and you asked "Are you home?"
Then we started talking about hobby, your taekwondo times, and me still dancing hours every weekend.
Do you remember the first time I gave you apples because I said Apples gave me energy?
Hahahahaha
And how we will meet every morning at the locker to exchange our breakfast? :)
I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER HOW I WOULD LIKE TO SNEAK IN SURPRISES INTO YOUR LOCKER
Locker 128 if i'm not wrong.

I think leaving SA was the biggest challenge for the both of us.
Where insecurities crept in.
But I'm so glad that there's so much trust within us to make things work my dear :)
I remember all our happy dates,
where we have picnic at Botanics
Island Cremery Dates
Swim Date at Jurong where we walked for near 2 hours
Kiseki Buffet HAHAHAHAHAH (epic)
Always hanging out at OC, always trying to make out somewhere
Going to the beach together
All our food hunts
Breakfast dates
CHOMP CHOMP
BAH KUT TEH
You visiting me at work
BBQ with the team (okay considered as date la)
Movie dates
Marina Bay date where we sat near the riverbank and said we will be working at those high rise buildings
Gardens by the bay
Study session at NLB
We went to gym once?
Sengkang pool, slide date :)
Our sentosa tanning session
we going to the ZOO together :)
USS
And our all time favourite, BEEHOON date
AND MANY MANY MORE
So here's to everything beautiful we've had and we have
you are the world and more to me
It will be tough after May arrives, but I believe every relationship there's bound to be obstacle and this is just another test we have to get through
and don't you ever worry baby.
You are the one.
Happy Valentines' Day my love, I hope all the flashbacks were beautiful to you and sorry for the early Vday gift, im sure you liked it, like duh, cause you chose it yourself :) I just want to thank you for loving me throughout despite me being a hassle.
Thank you for accommodating to my schedule and patiently wait for my busy period to be over
Thank you for still wanting to spend time with me despite how sleep deprived you are
Thank you for being a sweetie all the time
Thank you for all the times you paid for my food even though i'll be angry
Thank you for holding my hands for the past 18 months
Thank you for being there at my worst and at my peak
Thank you for being the one
& lastly, Thank you for loving me baby :)



love,
Your Girlfriend

This

I guess I've met mine :)

18/01/13

180113

"When P walked away"

Thank you for not giving up on me

For standing strong when I'm weak

I've came to realized how much i meant to you

I felt like you've loved me 20000000 times more than I could ever love

& I should feel blessed

Though sometimes I feel like I don't love you as much as 2000000000 times

But i'm pretty sure i am at 1999999999999 

i'll let you have that 1 :)

Wait for me darling,

I promise,

I'll make it to infinity soon

and,

I'll never walk off without you again

DAY 7

BABY! THIS IS TO DO LIST

IM COMING BACK TOMORROW BABY!!!!  <3333333

DAY 6

Baby, I hope you have't forgot about me,
its finally day 6! :D
I miss you baby love, i really do, i hope when you are bored you can look back at the posts I've written, how silly I started so long ago, about every fun date we had :) HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH I hope you had fun as much as I am whenever we are out on a date baby! Heheheheh, i miss watching movie with you! Time to go catch some movie right? You know how much I enjoy myself when we watch something together, HAHAHAHAH cause i love laughing in your arms, or just being so close to you in the dark cinema. (shy) heheheheheheheh! Ok I know you want to go apply for a job soon but please don't work so many jobs ok? I know you wanna earn lotsa money but I'll miss you and i still want to spend time with you alright :D Like our quality time.

Because I still want to make more happy memories with you
To smile with you
Swim with you
Suntan with you
Ride on roller coasters with you
Travel with you,
there's so many things i wanna do with you! I just hope we had all the time in the world baby..

:D but im sure we have them in the future right?
xx

Please wait for me to be back honey! I love you!

DAY 5

Hello honeybeeeeeeeeeeee <3333333333

I MISS YOU

AND I REALLY DO, today is DAY 5 and just 3 more days till im back in Singapore, and today will just be a short post because a picture speaks a thousand words....

DAY 4

IT'S HALFWAY THERE BABY!!!!!

HAVE YOU BEEN THINKING ABOUT ME HONEY? CAUSE I DO :( I miss your face, your voice, your hugs and everything baby! Howwwwww? Can i just see you really soon? Baby, did I tell you how last time, whenever in school, i'll be extremely shy when i walk past your class or like walk past you during training. Hehehehehe like our "happening" days!!!! Like i remembered I had chinese remedial, and you waited for me so we could go OC together to study baby :) And how like during study dates, you will get me carrot cakes and we will be the earliest people at coffee bean :) HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! And all the time we went for parties around someone's house, i'll just feel that you are nearby :) HAHAHAHAAH OMGOSH IM SO SHY TALKING ABOUT IT! hehehehehehe i think we are so cute then, but we became cuter now! HEHEHEHEHEHEHE like you've been showering me with love unconditionally, like i cry you will fly down to my house. I just feel so protected and loved by you and i don't want to expect for anything, i just want to be with you ok?

I'm pretty sure 20 years down the road, I'll still look back and be smiling at our dates,
and you'll be husband
with MEGAN FOX ONG AND TREVOR ONG
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAH
AND I DECIDED TO GIVE THEM CHINESE NAMES
LIKE ONE IS YUJUN AND THE OTHER IS JUNYU
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!!!
OMGOSH IS SO FUNNY,
and we will have 2 pets,
one white dog and one black dog,
they will be called AH NEH AND ANGMOH
<33 ok?
THIS IS OUR FUTURE BABY!
OK SEE YA VERY SOON! MISS ME K!
I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUU!

DAY 3

ITS DAY 3 BABY!!!!!!!!

Today, let's discuss on our dates when i get back from TAIWAN honey! Is like a short week before 2013 approaches but can I date you on a monday to have picnic at the Botanics and I wanna book you for christmas and new year too!! Please keep those dates available alright :) I hope i find a nice gift for you before christmas approaches! CAN YOU AT LEAST POST ON TWITTER OR GIVE ME A HINT like what you want baby!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHHA Idk what else can i get you i might have to resort to wrapping myself up for you! HEHEHEHEH i shall be your santa baby :D Is a few more days to Christmas and is our second time spending it together, I will be spending all my christmas with you right honey?

Heheheheeh ok i know is sad you cant hug me to bed at night,
for once i let you use chouchou to substitute me,
i miss you like crazy already,
have a good day baby boy!
You are always in my mind <3333

DAY 2

HELLO SWEETIE PIE!
I MISSSSSSS YOU! How was your day yesterday? I hope one day without me didn't bore you! Hehehehehehehe, today I will be up on the mountains and when i'm closer to the angels and God above, I'll tell them that I love you and make sure you are the one for my whole life :) Did you take your meals my baby boy? No skipping of meals you get it? HAHAHAHAHAHA NO MAGGIE MEE EVEN IF YOU ARE LAZY ALRIGHT! Today will be a good day and I hope you didn't forget me honey :) I'll definitely use your heatpacks and lipbalm ok! I'll prolly make out with my lipbalms cause i miss your lips already baobaoooo :( HAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAH! I know you will be using the computer when you are bored, but please rest your pretty eyes ok? I want to go back home soon! I want to be in your arms! <3333333333 But no matter how far am I, you know my heart is with you. like 1000000000000 miles away, i'm still thinking about you ok :)

I love you baby boy!
I'll be back soon!

DAY 1

Baby Love,

I hope you are doing fine. By the time you read this, i am probably on the plane to taiwan already :) And i just want to tell you, I miss you. I really do.
The past few days were so hard to get by, I really felt so horrible to be in that situation with you.
I never had the chance to tell you in face that I am sorry.
I just want to say, that is part of growing up and we want each other very badly don't we? That's why we bother to trash things out and tell each other how we felt. But just so you know, i'll embrace it and take it as a stepping stone from the past, that we are moving on to the future with smiles. There won't be tears or arguments anymore. There won't be bitterness inside of us, inside of me, inside of you. We are going to be the happiest couple on earth. AND WE WILL ALWAYS BE :) I'll always have faith, in this relationship because you are the best I ever had, and no one can replace you for sure. I love you and I can say this for a lifetime. Don't ever leave me ok? Im sending some love from taiwan! xx

Remember to take your meal ah! (INSERT STERN FACE HERE)
AI NI! <3333333

On a mundance Sunday..

There was a tuesday night and you took me into your arms and whispered "I love you" for the first time, it was the most genuine, painless and beautiful moment in my life and it stuck to me, it stuck to us. It's been fourteen months since you placed your hands into mine and asked me to be yours "Forever since today". There was no need for the applaud or the sounds of birds in the sky, and from the night I gave you my heart, you were my life- you were all I needed to know and see. Perhaps it came with age, to find the special someone to change my life around, to sweep my feet off the waxed floors and to make it so easy to love- to make it so easy to live.

You are the one whom I would stay up late for, having those endless daydreaming of our future

to weave in this bubble of ours, I can't ask for more can I?

When you asked if it was weird to tuck my head into your chest......

you've got to know i've already memorized the curves on your chest, the smell of your hair, the fingerprints on your hands and the crinkles around your mesmerizing eyes

 and ducking my head right into your chest feels like home to me.

You are like the rustle of the winds during the nights I climb onto my roof in the dark smoking my life away, seeking some form of comfort and a sign to remember I wasn't alone. you are sigur ros in my darkest days, and you are The Breakfast Club on a Sunday morning. you are the first glimpse of dawn i camped the night away for, and you are the only one. 

I'm genuinely looking forward to the 28th of November,

where the real fun begins.

Never be apologetic that you have not spend suffice time with me because

those minimal time that you gave me during this crazy week

was quality time honey

This is for you :)

Stacey Jay

"Real love has little to do with falling. It’s a climb up the rocky face of a mountain, hard work, and most people are too selfish or too scared to bother. Very few reach the critical point in their relationship that summons the attention of the light and the dark, that place where they will make a commitment to love no matter what obstacles-or temptations- appear in their path."

Your thoughts transcend everything else

Dear J,

I'm here. I'm listening. It's okay. I'll always be here remember? I know how you feel but i'm not going to say that I know "exactly" what you are going through, because I don't. You're going through, and I don't. We all have different problems, some bigger than the others, that doesn't mean we can't feel, right? I have bad thoughts too, they keep coming back, eating me away. I'm so tired of it and sometimes I think that maybe just one little blow will make everything better. But baby, you've shown me that no matter how bad things can get, no matter how useless or disgusting we feel, we must find the strength to keep going. We need to realize that we are not alone. Even though we can't choose where we came from, we can always choose where to go from there. I want to be someone, and I think I will be, I think you will too, to be that "someone" you eventually want to be when you grow up, baby. I hope you know that I'm always here to listen because you taught me so much even when you felt alone. You can never be alone. Thank you for everything and remember, i'm with you, always, all ways

Love always,
P

Stay close

If whatever happens,

remember,

I did, I do, and I will

Love you

Honey, I just want to tell you that you're always the number one in my heart. I love you so much that I can't explain how much I've fallen in love with you. I love everything about you although at times I may be a little too sensitive and be so paranoid about everything, but eventually my heart's with you and it will always be. It's been 390 days since we got together and I haven't been more blessed. I really enjoyed my zoo trip yesterday and I'll never forget that day! :) just want to tell you to keep going and we will have more of this dates :) we will go outings and just chillax at the garden, you have no idea how happy was I to look at the sky and your face baby :)  

Thanks for everything :D

Yeah, You could be the greatest
You can be the best
You can be the king kong banging on your chest

You could beat the world
You could beat the war
You could talk to God, go banging on his door

You can throw your hands up
You can be the clock
You can move a mountain
You can break rocks
You can be a master
Don't wait for luck
Dedicate yourself and you can find yourself

Standing in the hall of fame
And the world's gonna know your name
Cause you burn with the brightest flame
And the world's gonna know your name
And you'll be on the walls of the hall of fame

You could go the distance
You could run the mile
You could walk straight through hell with a smile

You could be the hero
You could get the gold
Breaking all the records that thought never could be broke

Do it for your people
Do it for your pride
Never gonna know if you never even try

Do it for your country
Do it for you name
Cause there's gonna be a day

When your, standing in the hall of fame
And the world's gonna know your name
Cause you burn with the brightest flame
And the world's gonna know your name
And you'll be on the walls of the hall of fame

Be a champion, Be a champion, Be a champion, Be a champion