It's been long since the last update.
Is going to be a grueling 12 days without you by my side. That sucks but is okay :)
Honey, you know how much I'll do and wait for you right? Even though is emotionally tormenting to be separated from you (physically), I keep telling myself to stay strong because if I do not, you will not either. I treasure the times when I am with you, our weekend dates, our little meals, our stroll and your little gestures just make me realized that - all the wait was worth it. And you have no idea, NO IDEA, how happy and blessed am I to sense your presence. I came to realized that why people break up when the other half during the course of army because is really really tough, when communications and physical time together are reduced SIGNIFICANTLY. AND ITS HARD, to not have someone there when you need them, or to console someone when they are so far away. Eventually, they will feel empty within right?
BUTTTTT BABYYYYYY im just saying, like if I am in their shoes la, obviously we are different. Im sorry if I sounded bipolar because i'm just thinking honey. I've been staying so strong and being occupied all these while. Im not even experiencing the slightest loneliness/emptiness/neglect-ness whatsoever ok? I just miss you and I know how hard is it for you, because you probably miss me as much as I miss you, and yet you're stuck in there.. That's worst x 100 for you. But you've been a fighter to me. And i'm proud of you :)
I know sometimes you miss me so bad I see tears welling up in your tear duct and at the rims of your eyes, you suck it all in because you are a strong boy. Just need to tell you that, we have to stay strong ok? Especially when times are gonna get harder in there, you need to be extra positive! REMEMBER ALL THE POSITIVE THINKING WE TALKED ABOUT IN JC? :)
Things will be fine because even though is 12 days later we get to go on a date, you know I will be here waiting patiently (with a smile on of course). I'm not going to whine or complain and swear about SAF or anything. Everyone have to get through this and is really just a test to our r/s. SO WE MUST NOT CONFORM AND BE WEAK. WE HAVE TO BE LOVING AND UNDERSTANDING :) HAHA I sound very wise and understanding :) hehehehehhee,  all I hope for is- you to be happy ok? I know you're tired, and is draining, but Hooray! Got through the first day of the week baby! :)

By the way, to make your day better, I'VE RESEARCHED ON A FEW PLACES WE CANT VISIT FOR OUR SECOND YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOHOOOOOOOOOOO

1) PENNY UNI

2) Cups and Canvas

4) Prive Cafe

5) Five and Dime

6) PS CAFE

7) ANTOINETTE

8) Marche

9) THE KOREAN SHOP AT ORCHARD CENTRAL

10) OR KISEKI MUAHAHAHAHAHA

11) IF YOU WANNA RIDE HORSE, we can go rider's cafe too!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA im such an efficient girlfriend baby!

HOPE YOU ARE AS EXCITED AS ME!!!

I miss you my love,

"Love isn't him calming you down when you yell.
It's him yelling, just as loud, just as hard, right back at you,
right in your face to wake you up and keep you grounded.
It isn't him bringing you roses everyday or cute things
that make your relationship appear more presentable. 
It's after a long fight, that drains the life and bones out of the both of you, 
and yet showing up at your door the next morning anyway.
It's not him saying all the right things or knowing exactly how to handle you. 
It's not him caressing your hair and telling you everything is going to be alright. 
It's him standing there, admitting he's just as scared as you are. 
You have to remember that with love, you're not the only one involved. 
You're unknowingly put your life,
your heart into the palms of another person's hands and said, 
"Here. Do what you will. Mash it into mince meat, or forget I ever handed it to you."

I love you so much my love, missing you so much from the civilization.

I take the effort to wake up every morning and keep some time to myself to embrace myself with the thoughts of you, of us

It isn't easy but I feel good just thinking about you, right next to me :)

It's okay we are a sea apart, i'll be looking forward to your voice every night.

I have crazy thoughts about us every night baby,

I want to wear white and marry you somewhere, anywhere

I want to build a house with you, upon a big patch of grass, there will be standing a little white house

I want to wake up to your smiles every morning 

See you cry, see you cringe, see you bursting into laughters, seeing you in comfort,

within me

I want to travel with you, look at the world with our pair of eyes

I want us to grow together,

catch every sunrise and sunset together,

I want us to get into arguments, but still giving in because we love one another,

I want to be vulnerable and to be ushered into your arms

I want you <3

My Ah Boy to Man

Darling,
I hope when you are reading this, you are going to stay really positive and strong for our upcoming challenges ok? I just want to thank you for creating such wonderful memories for me, for us. This is going to be the greatest challenge ahead, so much so, it felt like a threat or fear to me. The fear of losing you, the fear of "what ifs", the fear of change..
The past few days were like a dream for me, i was genuinely happy and blessed to be holding your hand, walking along streets, eating, smiling, tickling, laughing with you.
That state of happiness within me even when we are not doing anything, shows how much I've fallen for you baby.. Every minute spent with you, is like etched upon my mind, my heart and my soul.
Every place I visit, reminds me of you.
Every little details that i do, like even putting my lipbalm on, reminds me of how you'll smear those layers of kickass stuff on my lips.
But nonetheless, I'm keeping these memories with me and will continue to make them in the future with you baby, the commitment we have for one another, the dreams we have together, there is just so many things undone and we have not done. We promised one another, that there's no stopping for us. Our love will just have to grow, in a way, even if you are not physically here with me.
Like I said, you have my words for everything. I assure you that you're the only guy that i will like today...tomorrow... a week later.. a year later.... and even when im turning 100. Your hands are the only ones that fit mine, and your lips are the ones for me.
My heart will be close to you and i'll N E V E R, I swear, to forget you even for a minute. And i hope you'll do the same for me honey.
I know the truth, that things aren't right for you, you're not really that fine sometimes, like you may be slightly unhappy that we will be separated, you'll miss me, you'll need me,
but baby,
I need you to stay strong to pull through because things will only get better from then and life goes on :)
Sometimes these little moments of sadness/emotions are to show us the wonderful and good moments in life.
Don't ever have the idea that we will not have wonderful times just because you are stuck in that stupid resort ok?
I'll try my very best to transmit my love across, via phone, sms, anything!
I'll update this space as much as I can, so you can read them all when you are free :)
Will be looking forward to every book out that you have, and the activities we are going to engage ourselves in!
Just promise me that if you are dejected or really tired inside,
you'll chin up,
you'll wipe those tears away,
you'll stand strong
because you are a little fighter in my heart, though you are serving for the country,
you will always be my baby in my heart :D
you know that I'm your number one supporter right? Your girl will wait for you, i promise
because in her concert, the only audience she will have is you.
HAHAHHAAH her mini karaoke concert!
So just promise me ok my baby?
Dont ever give up.
On anything,
On me,
On us.


WE WILL GET MARRIED SOON. BECAUSE YOU GAVE ME A GRASS ENGAGEMENT RING AND I'LL MAKE SURE I HAVE A DIAMOND ONE ON ME SOON! :D

I love you sweetheart.
I hope you'll replay those times when i whisper those three words into your ears.
MAKE SURE YOU KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU VERY VERY VERY VERY MUCH OK?
FOREVER AND ALWAYS.
I need you back really soon to continue making our love videos.

Love and kisses,
Your baby girl.

Happy V Day Dearest,

It didn't occur to me that it's been a long time, ironically, when we first dated, it feels like forever since we've been together.
Nevertheless, you never fail to make me for fall you every single day.
I vividly remembered the first time when you came into polo,
when I made fuss about who is this "junfu" guy that the whole school was talking about cause of your previous breakup,
I remembered how polo studying sessions you were near me, or were you sitting opposite me
and how coincidentally we stayed at the same area.
Polo dates then became "our" dates where we will find excuses to go out and study (you bought carrot cake for me, do you remember?)
But truthfully, I just wanted to be close to you (shy)
Honestly, it didn't occur to me that I was slowly falling in love with you
I looked forward to school because I know somehow you'll try to peek at me, or me looking out for you
But still pretending we are least interested in each other.
You called me PIG, and you are my PIG too, your random texts in school.
Ya ok, I was waiting for those texts, I bet you are too :)
How MSN chats became texts after that BBQ at Qinghong's place
and you asked "Are you home?"
Then we started talking about hobby, your taekwondo times, and me still dancing hours every weekend.
Do you remember the first time I gave you apples because I said Apples gave me energy?
Hahahahaha
And how we will meet every morning at the locker to exchange our breakfast? :)
I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER HOW I WOULD LIKE TO SNEAK IN SURPRISES INTO YOUR LOCKER
Locker 128 if i'm not wrong.

I think leaving SA was the biggest challenge for the both of us.
Where insecurities crept in.
But I'm so glad that there's so much trust within us to make things work my dear :)
I remember all our happy dates,
where we have picnic at Botanics
Island Cremery Dates
Swim Date at Jurong where we walked for near 2 hours
Kiseki Buffet HAHAHAHAHAH (epic)
Always hanging out at OC, always trying to make out somewhere
Going to the beach together
All our food hunts
Breakfast dates
CHOMP CHOMP
BAH KUT TEH
You visiting me at work
BBQ with the team (okay considered as date la)
Movie dates
Marina Bay date where we sat near the riverbank and said we will be working at those high rise buildings
Gardens by the bay
Study session at NLB
We went to gym once?
Sengkang pool, slide date :)
Our sentosa tanning session
we going to the ZOO together :)
USS
And our all time favourite, BEEHOON date
AND MANY MANY MORE
So here's to everything beautiful we've had and we have
you are the world and more to me
It will be tough after May arrives, but I believe every relationship there's bound to be obstacle and this is just another test we have to get through
and don't you ever worry baby.
You are the one.
Happy Valentines' Day my love, I hope all the flashbacks were beautiful to you and sorry for the early Vday gift, im sure you liked it, like duh, cause you chose it yourself :) I just want to thank you for loving me throughout despite me being a hassle.
Thank you for accommodating to my schedule and patiently wait for my busy period to be over
Thank you for still wanting to spend time with me despite how sleep deprived you are
Thank you for being a sweetie all the time
Thank you for all the times you paid for my food even though i'll be angry
Thank you for holding my hands for the past 18 months
Thank you for being there at my worst and at my peak
Thank you for being the one
& lastly, Thank you for loving me baby :)



love,
Your Girlfriend

This

I guess I've met mine :)

18/01/13

180113

"When P walked away"

Thank you for not giving up on me

For standing strong when I'm weak

I've came to realized how much i meant to you

I felt like you've loved me 20000000 times more than I could ever love

& I should feel blessed

Though sometimes I feel like I don't love you as much as 2000000000 times

But i'm pretty sure i am at 1999999999999 

i'll let you have that 1 :)

Wait for me darling,

I promise,

I'll make it to infinity soon

and,

I'll never walk off without you again

DAY 7

BABY! THIS IS TO DO LIST

IM COMING BACK TOMORROW BABY!!!!  <3333333